all of the lights

holiday period ends, the assignments and exams in school, were again present. I'm really lazy to school, not because of friends, teachers, assignments or exams, etc.. but because I really feel like getting out when I awakened. I prefer to wake up alone because I can feel the satisfaction of my sleep and because of school I can't feel the satisfaction. frankly, I need a retirement time for school hoursss....

colder weather.

Today, I cried my heart out.
Funny thing, in my brain like in rotate movie. Over and over again, repeating back and forth. About what's gone on, what I did wrong, and the values I've lost.


Already the common secret, that regrets always come late. And I guess there's nothing we can do to prevent regret coming, yesh? But the question now is, what a sense of regret is useful? You know how they say, tears of regret can't turn back the hands of time.
I've been thinking about this for quite a long time, actually.
What's the point of regret, all also can not be modified. You're born, you die and in between you make a lot of mistakes. Everyone does. It's a natural thing to do.


"Your family and friends would never forgive you if they knew half of what you do. Unfortunately, you know the whole. "


But I'm telling you this. Don't blame yourself. Yes it may be all wrong you, maybe. But don't designate any use other than keeping yourself from great things ahead. Learning starts to forgive oneself is the first step of moving on. Been there, done that. I understand if excuse yourself it was millions of times a lot more difficult than to forgive others.

I knowwww, it's tough to do so. But by forgiving yourself, you start creating a better life for yourself and those arround you. Not only are you are tired of carrying those heavy burdens in your soul. But everyone also made tired.Unknowingly you not only ruin your life, but you're also removing color from living people.

It's not just that we feel bad about doing the things we've done, but we deliberately envelop ourselves with that feeling. We intentionally torturing ourselves with the guilt.

I tell you, you have no right to punish yourself by feeling miserable for the rest of your life. It is his right and I think also the Lord God would've love a sentence accordingly. So, please, let it go.

It's never too late to start again. Not going to be easy, but by no means can not. You have to want it so much, that it'll drive you to do anything you can to make it happen.

Introspect what you did wrong, but don't stuck in regression.

CHINESE NEW YEAR ❤❤

Happy Chinese New Year everyoneeee\m/ 
wake up a little early. Yes, sounds various Chinese songs. This is the moment of receiving the red pocket. I know that everyone must be very happy to receive a red pocket. Come to night then fireworks rockkkk yeah!

take me or leave me

There is a difference between happiness and joy. Sometimes I say, "I am happy.", but it's not always true, if the happiness I still rely on emotion and the desire and the will of my own. Joy doesn't rely on things that I didn't like or expect. Joy is a decision or something that happened due to obey God's will in my life, though it was not in keeping with the desire, will, even my own flesh. I am happy, because I have learned to obey God's will, though sometimes contrary to the will of my own. I know, God is taught me to be a woman of wisdom for a garden. I just believe, when I follow his will, God will give his gifts to me to enjoy it, and I'll live happier. That's a real joy that comes from God, which enabled us facing a test of my life everyday.

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As usual I do not like the first lesson today, probably because of that teacher. Yes, got free time just about 1 hour. I use this time as best as possible. For the second time. A bit boring because I don't know where I must go and just play. A bit funny because a person's gaze. Yes, I know that very many obstacles I have to go through and I get two hitch. Not a problem but I continue to think about it and very thankful to this day I don't really think two snag it. I love today! And my beloved friend, JT, is going out of town today. So im gonna say is safeflight darla<3  wmysdm! and I also don't forget to say happy birthday Luvanda! stay pretty<3\m/ 

just a dream

What would it be if when we became acquainted with someone who had never before we know it before, there is a complete information we get about all the characters and habits of ugly people. In addition we can also find out what events will happen with our relationship with him/her in the future. Roughly, are we going to stay in a relationship with the person is ignoring all our negative thoughts and assumptions about the person? Will we still be able to love and relate to him/her without keeping distance?

One day, I've had this question in his heart: "When God made human, did he think that one day human will disappoint and stabbed him/hercreation?" I am sure, in fact God is aware of the events of the fall of human in sin. However, what makes God still created human?

little lion man

The first day of school. so boring except for the last lesson,my homeroom's class, physics. yes in fact usually the lesson for me was very boring but not this time. my homeroom told our report card value, I am grateful and happy I didn't have any red mark at all and he gave us a special punishment for whose physics final exam's score which got red mark. I was quite intrigued with my rank and finally my homeroom telling anyone who entered 15 big and when he mentioned my name I was so surprised, I don't think can beat my friend who used to be top 10.


Happy 4teen birthday Jessica Tanoto (JT). Hope all your dreams come true. Big blast girl *kisshugkisshug :*

me and JT

the show goes on

spend my holidays for 5 days in Siantar, samosir villas and resort, carolina hotel. take very many photos, swimming, cycling, snacking on the shores of Lake Toba, relax every night in a luxury lodge located on the 2nd floor right side, enjoying the evening breeze by the pool, playing table tennis, share stories and many more. An extremely enjoyable holiday.

and there are many more ☀